Our last goodbye was never spoken. Your eyes to mine ...... our only communication. But, what was conveyed in our last moments together, no words could describe. I am grieving for what I have lost in my present but also what I thought we would have in our future. Our time line is erased and our future memories we could make together impossible. Widowhood is lonely and scary more so because I am still head overheals in love with you.

Sweet dreams and a sunshine to wake up to. Even though its cold!

Ticket master?? Must have liked the ginger bread. I am a winner xx merry Christmas Dave xx

Perhaps you weren't supposed to be MY happy ever after, but I was yours? What if our time together was not for me, but for you? You were not supposed to make me so happy, so loved - that it was just a side effect. What if you were not given to me, but I was given to you? To make the time you had as good as I could. Maybe the blessings I got were not the point of it allbut yours were? What if i was but a tool to make your life all it could be while you were here? This doesn't make it hurt any less...but it changes things in my heart, and in my mind. I still struggle with the reality the your not here. I will always love you Dave. I love you as much today as I ever have.

I saw a quote today......... "THANKYOU FOR LETTING ME GO, BECAUSE I WOULDN'T HAVE WALKED AWAY".....and that made me think of you.

I MISSED YOU TODAY I missed you today but that’s nothing new, I missed you a million times yesterday too. I picked up my phone to tell you the news, then realised, again, I can’t text it to you. I saw your bright smile, at least twenty times, and then I remember, it’s all in my mind. I drive without presence, the world feels surreal, And on comes your song and this doesn’t seem real. I missed you today but I miss you a lot, It’s helpful to miss you, it’s all that I’ve got. I wish I could pull you down here for a while I’m frightened to lose the shape of your smile. I miss you today and I’ll miss you tomorrow, There seems to be no coming end to this sorrow. I try to go on as I know that you care, I know that you're willing me on from up there. I miss you today but I’m trying to find, A way to move on but not leave you behind. A way to forge on with the love that we had, A way to recall you and simply feel…glad. xx Jeanette

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I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.